meager attempts

I wonder what it felt like the first time everyone had kissed. Was it a feeling that overwhelmed you, was it a want or purely a miss? Don’t we all search for that connection. The one that’s only made through self examination. The one with that one special person that makes you feel like you’re the only one walking on planet earth. Deep down inside I know we all search for human affection. If not we wouldn’t be multiplying like rabbits in a hole, we wouldn't be living in towns that didn’t sleep, we'd be living incognito, not showing off our souls, instead we'd be buried somewhere deep down underneath. But what is it that drives us to mingle with the rest. What is it that makes our hearts linger in the street? Why don’t we all live independent lives, every man for himself, never looking back? Somewhere, there's a hidden valley of vulnerability placed gently within our souls. We don't know what it is, how it got there or what it’s made of, but it’s what keeps our heart beating, it’s what makes us want to live, it’s what gives our life meaning. We become attached if not to people, but to four legged friends, ones with feathers, and ones with fins. We look back on the moments when we used to dream like dreaming was a hobby, and recess never ended. Back when falling in love wasn’t mission impossible, but instead, it was mission must be made possible. But why do we give up... why must we let our broken hearts, break us apart, tears us down, turn us to dust, and let time sweep our remains away. Why don’t we allow ourselves to feel like the first time we had a crush, the first time we were in love. When our cheeks turned red, when we blushed, when our hearts were n'sync to different tunes, and we didn't mind when it skipped a beat. Why must we beat around the bush, instead of going after what we want? Can’t we all just surrender to our deepest desires? Stand up, be fearless, and realize that these moments are passing by and time is going to stop for no one. Open up your hearts; let the innocence that is sleeping inside of you free. Let it guide you to a world of happiness and longevity. Look back and remember when you weren’t afraid of love. Look at yourself now, and tell yourself that you’re not afraid to love.